Man, well about 2 years ago, i met this one girl (her nickname between us was penguina, so im going to go by that to "protect her identity"). So over the next year and a half or so, we got pretty close. We always called each other when summer break(not this one, but the year before) and we got really close with pretty personal conversations. I never had so much fun with a girl. We went out to the movies a few times. It was fucking great, i had fun.
one day, when school got back in, we walked around the outside of campus and she told me "Danny, you know... You're the only guy I talk to like this..." She made it sound like we were really fucking close. And I felt the same way.
Then, my friend told me "Hey that girl you're going out with? She's always getting close to that one fool, (insert guy's name here).
Now, I dont want to believe it, but this came from my homeboy, whom I've known MUCH longer than Penguina. I ignored it for a while. But then she started acting weird right after I remembered she had lied to me about something... I forget... I think it had something to do with her mom had said something about not trusting me after a night at the movies. Something around there... So then I got pissed, and I'm pretty hard headed... OH YEAH! I remember one time I put my arm around her and she looked at me and said "Uh, no... haha" and moved to the side lettimg my arm fall off her. I was FUMED!!!
So this added fuel to my already burning fire. So I was just short with her. and she caught on i was pissed we stopped talking. just kinda drifted apart. for the first time.
then after christmas break of that year, i kinda missed the calls, conversations and companionship with her. So I go up to her during lunch and ask if she wants to talk. She looks at me. "Yeah, sure." And we walk around, talk, "how was your christmas? etc" But then we stop walking... And I forgot what I asked her told her, but I tried to look her in the eyes. and her eyes get wide like i scared the shit out of her and she looks down away from me.
i thought to myself that something wasnt right, she felt guilty about something... After thinking that, I kinda drifted away from her... Not wanting to get involved in shit...
We pretty much ignored each other for a while, not cold blooded type. if we passed each other id say whats up she'd say hi but thats it.
Then recently when school started this year, I mean earily... Like, not even the third month. I was at clairemont square, like down the street from her house. Sitting in the parking lot waiting for my mom to get out of the store. and it just brought back good memories like a motherfucker. the laughs jokes, etc. The stupid garfield movie we sat through.... So I suddenly had a guilt trip and said to myself "Well, why didnt i just ask her about the shoulder thing? and i've never seen her with that guy since..." so i took out my cell and give her a call, she answers and sounds happy to hear from me. And honestly, it felt really good to hear her voice. we talked for a while. bringing up old jokes, times, and personal shit. I couldnt believe she remember some of the shit we used to joke about and say. I actually felt kinda happy.
So the monday after i called (i called during the weekend) i was eating with my friends, my homies... then as I look to the building exit from the corridor to the outside, i see Penguina and her group of girl friends come out. I tell my friends I'd be back after a minute or two. and I walk up to her. "Hey, Penguina, you wanna talk?"
"Right now?"
"Yeah, why not?"
"Oh, I can't talk to you right now, I'm with my friends"
I was in shock. She was so cool and seemed happy to hear from me the past weekend! And she give me the fuck you attitude!?
"Oh, ok"
i turned around
"sorry..."
I just waved my hand as a whatever jesture to her. I was fucking pissed. So we havent talked since, and when i see her, yeah, it bugs me. Just senseless shit we cant seem to put past each other. I just remembered about her when I heard that song "How Come" by D12 eariler today. and it seemed like every fucking lyric in that song reminded me of her. and this was just pissing the hell outta me the whole day.
I just need to vent, or else i would go out and fucking break something really expensive...
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one day, when school got back in, we walked around the outside of campus and she told me "Danny, you know... You're the only guy I talk to like this..." She made it sound like we were really fucking close. And I felt the same way.
Then, my friend told me "Hey that girl you're going out with? She's always getting close to that one fool, (insert guy's name here).
Now, I dont want to believe it, but this came from my homeboy, whom I've known MUCH longer than Penguina. I ignored it for a while. But then she started acting weird right after I remembered she had lied to me about something... I forget... I think it had something to do with her mom had said something about not trusting me after a night at the movies. Something around there... So then I got pissed, and I'm pretty hard headed... OH YEAH! I remember one time I put my arm around her and she looked at me and said "Uh, no... haha" and moved to the side lettimg my arm fall off her. I was FUMED!!!
So this added fuel to my already burning fire. So I was just short with her. and she caught on i was pissed we stopped talking. just kinda drifted apart. for the first time.then after christmas break of that year, i kinda missed the calls, conversations and companionship with her. So I go up to her during lunch and ask if she wants to talk. She looks at me. "Yeah, sure." And we walk around, talk, "how was your christmas? etc" But then we stop walking... And I forgot what I asked her told her, but I tried to look her in the eyes. and her eyes get wide like i scared the shit out of her and she looks down away from me.
i thought to myself that something wasnt right, she felt guilty about something... After thinking that, I kinda drifted away from her... Not wanting to get involved in shit...
We pretty much ignored each other for a while, not cold blooded type. if we passed each other id say whats up she'd say hi but thats it.
Then recently when school started this year, I mean earily... Like, not even the third month. I was at clairemont square, like down the street from her house. Sitting in the parking lot waiting for my mom to get out of the store. and it just brought back good memories like a motherfucker. the laughs jokes, etc. The stupid garfield movie we sat through.... So I suddenly had a guilt trip and said to myself "Well, why didnt i just ask her about the shoulder thing? and i've never seen her with that guy since..." so i took out my cell and give her a call, she answers and sounds happy to hear from me. And honestly, it felt really good to hear her voice. we talked for a while. bringing up old jokes, times, and personal shit. I couldnt believe she remember some of the shit we used to joke about and say. I actually felt kinda happy.
So the monday after i called (i called during the weekend) i was eating with my friends, my homies... then as I look to the building exit from the corridor to the outside, i see Penguina and her group of girl friends come out. I tell my friends I'd be back after a minute or two. and I walk up to her. "Hey, Penguina, you wanna talk?"
"Right now?"
"Yeah, why not?"
"Oh, I can't talk to you right now, I'm with my friends"
I was in shock. She was so cool and seemed happy to hear from me the past weekend! And she give me the fuck you attitude!?
"Oh, ok"
i turned around
"sorry..."
I just waved my hand as a whatever jesture to her. I was fucking pissed. So we havent talked since, and when i see her, yeah, it bugs me. Just senseless shit we cant seem to put past each other. I just remembered about her when I heard that song "How Come" by D12 eariler today. and it seemed like every fucking lyric in that song reminded me of her. and this was just pissing the hell outta me the whole day.
I just need to vent, or else i would go out and fucking break something really expensive...
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It's what I was going for..
sometimes when I think about my ex. When your memories of someone are all good, and then out of the blue things turn sour it's hard to turn those feelings of wanting to see them again off...
Now before you fags call *** or some shit what I mean is it reminds me of when i was really, really in love with someone (who I lost btw). 
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