Im going to keep this quick, being my first post in a long time.
I don't know what happened to me in the past couple years, But my life, lifestyle and the shit storm floating above my head (to the n00bs, Im the guy who... wow you just have to have been on this site for a long while to know my situations and past insanity's.
For the first time today I felt normal again. I went down a dark path in my life, lost alot of things, and shamed myself.
For those who forgot, the son of a preacher (me) became a full fledged heroin addict when I hit my rock bottom.
I have come A long way. I think you can rest assure I am the most qualified person to say this: "Drugs are bad"
Every kid has times in their life were they eat some mushrooms or whatever, it part about growing up. But once you start using hard drugs, its over.
I smoke pot all the time, It keeps me sane. I shouldnt need to, but I have so fried my brain it just helps...
So my point is, I am 22 years old now, I have only gotten 3 speeding tickets in the last 3 years. (compared to one every other month at least and my license gone for a year)...
I guess my point is, I miss this group, whats left of it, and I feel like I have truly grown up, and it feels good, no more stupid mistakes, no more idiotic thinking, Im sick of being a kid, I have finally got my health back, I Had so many problems going on in my life, having a rare almost unfixable spine disease that only 14 surgeons around the world are specialied to fix.
I had alot of bad things thrown at me recently.
I was chemically dependent, and clinically depressed.
I am not that person anymore, and it feels good. Cars are my passion, I dont even really like honda's anymore besides my CB7, its just the only front wheel drive car I would ever own... maybe a crx.
Sooo my point is, Im really glad I am not dead and I feel really good for the first time today. I cut myself off from the world for a while, but I realized that wasnt making me happy.
I feiel older, I dont wnt to say hey I am grown up now I know everything because I dont, but I do know I would have slapt myself stupid 6 months ago.
Thank you all for being there for me over the past year or 2, wether you flamed me or helped me or banned me Thank you all.
I have been working on my cars, I have so much on my plate, but I have alot of assets im selling and simply keeping my turbo diesel 6 speed RAM my CB, my 1988 Iroc Z28 383 stroker leather interior t-tops limited edition (bought it for 250$ from a friend whos in jail woot, The engines at the machine shop only cost 300 bucks, Which means I will have a 13 second car for under a grand.
Ok Off topic.
I am really happy to have turned my life around and hopefully be back in this community. I may not be an adult (or still want to be) but im not a kid anymore.
so much to say but not today. lost of fun stories in due time. i have to get ready for an NA meeting.
i couldnt show my face here until i was well true to myself 100%
I have lost ALL of my friends to drugs.
So I am truly happy to be here today.
I don't know what happened to me in the past couple years, But my life, lifestyle and the shit storm floating above my head (to the n00bs, Im the guy who... wow you just have to have been on this site for a long while to know my situations and past insanity's.
For the first time today I felt normal again. I went down a dark path in my life, lost alot of things, and shamed myself.
For those who forgot, the son of a preacher (me) became a full fledged heroin addict when I hit my rock bottom.
I have come A long way. I think you can rest assure I am the most qualified person to say this: "Drugs are bad"
Every kid has times in their life were they eat some mushrooms or whatever, it part about growing up. But once you start using hard drugs, its over.
I smoke pot all the time, It keeps me sane. I shouldnt need to, but I have so fried my brain it just helps...
So my point is, I am 22 years old now, I have only gotten 3 speeding tickets in the last 3 years. (compared to one every other month at least and my license gone for a year)...
I guess my point is, I miss this group, whats left of it, and I feel like I have truly grown up, and it feels good, no more stupid mistakes, no more idiotic thinking, Im sick of being a kid, I have finally got my health back, I Had so many problems going on in my life, having a rare almost unfixable spine disease that only 14 surgeons around the world are specialied to fix.
I had alot of bad things thrown at me recently.
I was chemically dependent, and clinically depressed.
I am not that person anymore, and it feels good. Cars are my passion, I dont even really like honda's anymore besides my CB7, its just the only front wheel drive car I would ever own... maybe a crx.
Sooo my point is, Im really glad I am not dead and I feel really good for the first time today. I cut myself off from the world for a while, but I realized that wasnt making me happy.
I feiel older, I dont wnt to say hey I am grown up now I know everything because I dont, but I do know I would have slapt myself stupid 6 months ago.
Thank you all for being there for me over the past year or 2, wether you flamed me or helped me or banned me Thank you all.
I have been working on my cars, I have so much on my plate, but I have alot of assets im selling and simply keeping my turbo diesel 6 speed RAM my CB, my 1988 Iroc Z28 383 stroker leather interior t-tops limited edition (bought it for 250$ from a friend whos in jail woot, The engines at the machine shop only cost 300 bucks, Which means I will have a 13 second car for under a grand.
Ok Off topic.
I am really happy to have turned my life around and hopefully be back in this community. I may not be an adult (or still want to be) but im not a kid anymore.
so much to say but not today. lost of fun stories in due time. i have to get ready for an NA meeting.
i couldnt show my face here until i was well true to myself 100%
I have lost ALL of my friends to drugs.
So I am truly happy to be here today.
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