Have you ever...

[SMseagren83]

nope man...im clinically diagnosed with depression too bro! its almost a daily thing for me too!! well not like 24/7 but throughout the day i get depressed for a couple hours until i get distracted by something else!! its just a chemical inbalance that FOR ME is helped out through poppin pills daily! although i hated the fact that how i felt through the day was dependent upon a pill..so i stoppped and then i went WAAY downhill.... i can go on and on about my symptoms but that would get depressing sooo...ill leave with that said

anyways....ur not the only one man! i feel ya! trust me!

Sean

[Clueless]

at least you have a roof on your head, my mom threatens me to kick me out of the house to my dad's place.

yea, but thier still communist...they make you do things they want you to do, don't let you do the things you wanna do, and make all the choices for you(what to buy, drive, wear, who to date, etc). It's probbly partially my fault since I'm so obedient and respectful to them, but pissing me off.

[accordaffair]

Happy birthday to SMseagren83!

[Clueless]

I'm probably one of the few people on here thats actually clinically depressed. This isn't a weekly thing, It's every single day. Ive been fucked up for a long time, and noone knows why. It's a daily 'worthless' feeling, I could go on but would rather not. I'm also on enough medications I'm sure I could start my own pharmacy, which still don't work sometimes. So be happy your not me.

I'm sorry man, I have a friend who's like this...it sucks.

[SMseagren83]

its not so bad...only bad when its starts affecting certain aspects of ur life!! but drugs can certainly help! and by drugs i mean medication! before i went and got diagnosed i lost a really good friend and broke up with one of my ex's cuz she couldnt understand the constant changes in emotions (ups and downs).

Sean

[Clueless]

its not so bad...only bad when its starts affecting certain aspects of ur life!! but drugs can certainly help! and by drugs i mean medication! before i went and got diagnosed i lost a really good friend and broke up with one of my ex's cuz she couldnt understand the constant changes in emotions (ups and downs).

Sean

You mean bi-polar?

[wed3k]

yea, but thier still communist...they make you do things they want you to do, don't let you do the things you wanna do, and make all the choices for you(what to buy, drive, wear, who to date, etc). It's probbly partially my fault since I'm so obedient and respectful to them, but pissing me off.

damn, thats harsh,

that DOES sound like real asian parents, like they'll whoop you so hard until you get straight A's.

my mom right now started yelling at my sister, im fucking scared of my mom.

[SMseagren83]

You mean bi-polar?

naww man im not diagnosed with bi-polar..... but people with depression have their good days and bad days....doesnt mean that its THAT severe as bi-polar.....

Sean

[gloryaccordy]

at least you have a roof on your head, my mom threatens me to kick me out of the house to my dad's place.

Does your dad's place not have a roof?

And everyone goes through it man. There are days I can't stop thinking about my ex, even though I know there's no way the stars could line up the same way for us to be together...and while I'm not too sad about it anymore it still consumes me. But fuck it...everything in life is a lesson, so just try to learn from every situation to better yourself for the future. Over the last 7-8 months I've been through some major shit...it was a sucky half...but I learned from it, and I'm well on my way towards getting back on my feet and starting anew. For me, "depression" only really comes when shit is going bad, and shit usually goes bad for me because of stupid choices I make...but even still, when things aren't going your way, you can rest assured that things will get better...

I'm still trying to figure out if depression is real. My little brother is definitely depressed, and it's like he loves the misery...he does nothing to change his situation and he doesn't want to talk about anything. WTF? Anyhoo I think emotions are all in the mind, and once you master them you can do anything. But I dunno...I'm only speaking from personal experience...good luck man.

[wed3k]

Does your dad's place not have a roof?

And everyone goes through it man. There are days I can't stop thinking about my ex, even though I know there's no way the stars could line up the same way for us to be together...and while I'm not too sad about it anymore it still consumes me. But fuck it...everything in life is a lesson, so just try to learn from every situation to better yourself for the future. Over the last 7-8 months I've been through some major shit...it was a sucky half...but I learned from it, and I'm well on my way towards getting back on my feet and starting anew. For me, "depression" only really comes when shit is going bad, and shit usually goes bad for me because of stupid choices I make...but even still, when things aren't going your way, you can rest assured that things will get better...

I'm still trying to figure out if depression is real. My little brother is definitely depressed, and it's like he loves the misery...he does nothing to change his situation and he doesn't want to talk about anything. WTF? Anyhoo I think emotions are all in the mind, and once you master them you can do anything. But I dunno...I'm only speaking from personal experience...good luck man.

i dont want to be at my dad's place.
it is 20 minutes from everywhere i go so it'd be the bigest burden int he world. i shouldnt have to be put thru such hell from my mom. i just wrote this to go in my xanga but xanga doesnt work...

i am so scared right now...my mom just started yelling at me and everyoe in the house and proceeded to throw the cordless phone on the ground and break it into pieces.

i really have never been so scared, i dont know what to do. i want to get out of the house right now and goto barnes and nobles to study but i fear of getting locked out because my mom is notorious of doing that.

it makes me angry that her temper is sparked by the smallest thing in the world, i just want to punch her in the face to make her stop screaming because it will do everyone including herself good.
every time i talk to her, it some how makes her angry or she just ends up yelling at me.

i really do fear for me life whe living in this house and im sure there is something that i can do because eveeryone is kinda scared of her. i mean...who wants to be with this physco bitch?

im having temptations of slitting her throat because she probably is one of the ultimate down falls to my life.

going to go study or do something productive so i dont get labeled as "lazy ass" again.

[gloryaccordy]

Damn wed3k...sounds like your mom's dealing with some issues of her own. Just finish school, make sure you have a job when you're done and get out ASAP...

[wed3k]

Damn wed3k...sounds like your mom's dealing with some issues of her own. Just finish school, make sure you have a job when you're done and get out ASAP...

another incentive in finishing school

[Clueless]

another incentive in finishing school

yup

[SpdJnky93]

This is for everyone who's written in here . . . .Wow! I thought I was alone when it came to dealing with parents, ex's and depressed sessions. Please don't take this wrong,but Thanks! Sometimes I feel like I'll never amount to shit in this fucking life and that I am meant to live in the shadow of a sibling that happens to be the perfect child. I used to <gnals> and do stupid shit for attention til my accident this past December. I realized that if I didn't pull myself from that life that would end up in jail eventually and neither of my parents would give a fuck anyway (I give thanks to the Lord for my accident at times). So I decided to try and stick to school. School sucks balls and so does being the 25yr old brother who sets all the wrong examples , but I figure as long as I'm in school and pass like a rock barely skidding through water, I'll fucking make it . I too have those times of worthless feelings and I remember those few times as a teen when I thought of and once attempted to take my life, but at tines it's good to remember that the stupidist shit one can do is just that STUPID. I'd rather put a frown on a mutherfucker who doesnn't give a shit by making something of myself than to know I'm gone and when they think about me they'd say, "what an idiot" ! When I was in high school I used to say "Fuck The World" and get all in the clouds and drunk, now I say "Fuck The World" and I mean just that, Fuck evryone who doesn't care about me and the shit I do and the shit I go through, can't no one help me but me. In refrence to chicks; I used to get wound up and wonder about my ex too and even those it just didn't work out with, but I think that one member said it best when he said "everything in life is an experience". True that dog, but the faster you let it go the better. It usually takes time but eventually it all fades away and becomes a distant memory. Kinda glad this thread was started, just to let a little bit of frustartion out 'cause I don't think the one thread for things that piss you off would have been suitable. FTW-Sam.

[Dv8]

Man if my parents yelled at me like that.. shit would hit the fan. I don't go for intimidation but fuck, I respect my parents and I damn well better get respect back, which I do but thats not everyones case. wed3k I would have told her to shove it up her ass LONG ago. If she was a 300 pound bohemith I would probably think otherwise, but shit. I honestly I don't know your situation but don't put up with her shit. Tell her she needs to mellow the fuck out and get on some hardcore medication. Or if you really get sick of her shit find her some Ketamine. A drop of that in her morning coffee and she'll be out for a day. Yey for fucking horse tranquilizers.

Back to the matter of depression; some is considered self induced. I myself never had any event in which I wanted to be sad and miserable. It just happened. You can say that I am at the shallow end of the gene pool. But some people, i.e. EMO kids want to be like that, they for whatever twisted reason like it. They see the emo bands on T.V. and people at school, and they develop a new mentality about them that their life is horrible, that they want to die, that they have so much pain built up inside. From fucking what? They have a perfect life, a roof over their head, food to eat, an education. I admit some actually do have it bad, but for the other 75% of them what the hell is going on? Yes lets go and cut the word 'pain' into our arms. That sounds like fun. They go out of their way to make themselves miserable for God's sake. As for individuals such as myself, it feels as if I am in a hole, and can't get out. I would rather not turn my arms into swiss cheese, but I usually have that 'hopeless' feeling about me, though I don't go out of my own way to dig myself deeper. Its a stupid feeling I wish would leave. It does at some points, but not all that often. I'm not bi-polar either, as I never really have rapid and random psychotic episodes or random mood swings. I do have a lot of 'what the fuck am I doing this for' moments, and I question the stupidity in most things around me, myself included. Ive always got a mellow persona about me. Everyone I know tells me that. That can be blamed on the pharmaceutical pile I consume. I do try to enjoy myself as much as I can, and enjoy the simple things as much as I can. As Sean said before, its up and down.

You see, depression isn't always a state of mind, like in my case it can be a biological onset. I hate my brain and genes for it but I refuse to conform to the EMO life. I just stick to the doctors prescriptions and generally I am fine. Stupid brain.